Thread:Dst0902ning/@comment-29359399-20160801171541/@comment-29359399-20160809183145

Like.......wow. I don't even know what to say. I could absolutely squeeze the life out of you right now (in a good way) but I can't see you though. What you said in your last paragraph (no offense) really touched me and I am very thankful that you actually cared. I haven't had much friends in my life so far but at the same time, I've only had one friend that I thought could be a true friend but.......I learnt the truth and sadly it was too late. She would always cheer me up and make me feel so happy and loved. Everytime we spoke to each other, it was like all our problems in life just faded away.

She wasn't cut out for me in the end because she wasn't true to herself at all. She lived in the Netherlands and I lived in Trinidad (a country next to Venezuela). I was so far away from her and I just wanted to be closer. At a certain point in my life I didn't want her to be my friend anymore because she was hurting herself (not literally) by not being 100% honest and I left Google+ (we would always use that to communicate) for 6 weeks and I was easily replaced by some random German guy. He was her "new" best friend. We were still friends at that point in time but then it didn't feel the same when she talked to me and I couldn't take it anymore so I broke up our friendship. After that day I felt so stupid, so alone, so afraid that I'd end up making another friend like her, just to end up losing that friend once again. Everytime I get to know someone really well, the only thing I'd ask of them is that they would be as honest as possible with me.

I really do think that you are a really nice person. I'm not the kind of person who just wants to use people (well.....girls) to feel good about myself because that is really shallow. I....want to get to know you more but I won't get too personal and I am never demanding of anything so I think it could be alright. All I am trying to do is to be with the right people in my life (family and friends). I.......jeez I use "i" a lot, sorry though hehehe. I just hope that you are doing well with your work at school and with your everyday life at home. Ohhhh and by the way......don't think weirdly of me but my name is Darnel Jude Alfonzo and I really hope that we can be friends for as long as we live??????? >_<. OHHH I am such a weirdo. I feel so confused. I am really shy by the way so, it's not a problem for me to chat online but if I were to see you, I would be absolutely silent. I am not racist by the way (just saying is all XD). I just want you to remember to put your work first before friends but not before God or your own well-being.

I just wrote a short story lol but I hope you understand and that I don't confuse you too. Please read this carefully when you have time becausse I can tell that this won't bother you but what I am saying may kind of slow you down (not in a bad way, just saying). I feel a lot better now but like you said, if you never feel sad or angry, then you wouldn't know the meaning of happiness anymore. I also want you to know I have done wayyyyyy more roleplaying than you think so it isn't weird at all but I don't really think they'd all want me back there. Maybe you because.......of some unexplainable reason but I still don't know.

Anyway, I hope that you are having fun and doing what is needed to be done. If you have any other ways of talking besides facebook and twitter just let me know okay? ^-^. Bye bye for now and I hope we have a nice talk like this again :3