Thread:Dst0902ning/@comment-29359399-20160801171541/@comment-24060202-20160826235428

I hope you're fine now because I'm really worried when you didn't reply me on Facebook and I've realized that you're missing from my comrade list. Unfortunately life never goes the way we want it to, and we'll still have to cope with it.

to be honest my mood is like a rollercoaster since two weeks ago. I'm still mentally exhausted, and I find it hard to cure myself now, maybe it's really the time for me to be on hiatus in VC for a while and catch up in my studies (so I'll ignore everything else for some time) then come back, but I'm not so sure about that yet. Yesterday I asked my classmate if she prefers this years' or last years' class and she told me she prefers this years', and I asked her if it's because of her best friend and she said yes which made me realized the real reason that I'm really lonely for this whole year whenever I'm in my class. (although I did think of that possibility before like for one thousand times) I've been missing my other friends so much especially one friend who was nice to everyone, and I've think of her as my best friend but I don't think she thinks the same. I do have other friends with me in this class, but they're sitting in another group as I said before so I'm stuck with those people that I'm not familliar with except my deskmate(although it's been 8 months and it's not like we don't get along but I still don't feel comfortable with them) but I start to find her annoying because she talks to the others most of the time so I feel like she only talks to me when she needs me and those gossips about her seemed to be true now... and yesterday when the english teacher said we need to do pair work( I can bear with group work with these people I hate pair work especially after the english oral test where I was 'forced' to write the whole script out and 'forced' to memorize the script by practicing the whole thing with her for 3-7 times although I remember everything because I was the one who wrote the script ) I was literally going nuts and wanting to do individual work and the others in my group probably think that I'm crazy now. And now I'm back to my primary school life. Yay.