Thread:Cheriri/@comment-26101407-20150403185959/@comment-175.138.25.246-20150408164315

actually i dont really know where to go! =)

um..why i leave your alliance that day?...

well..umm... I-i actually want a cute,friendly and active alliance! (>.<) ... i really confused with myself that day D:

Well the story is ..

One day, i leave my own alliance (i build it). Why?, not many are active there (only one) ... i really want a goddess worship card and AUB cards so bad, but if only me do worship or fight alone, it takes forever to get! =(. even i continuosly playing for 5-6 months ( started at pirate event, 30/9/2014 08:30:23)

So, i decided to leave my alliance. Then, i wonder where to find an alliance that i wanted..so i think i might find it on wiki (no other places right?). First forum alliance page i saw is your alliance wall =). I see some of your AUB results was great so i decided to join...

So when i recieve your invitation, i feel so happy!...but at same time i feel so sad because i leave my own member in my alliance =(. Actually i already talked with my member (the only one active member)..so he/she responds "we will stay strong"..."ure actually a good leader"..,"we will stay strong"... then i replied "ty! ^^"..."maybe i consinder about my leaving". On next days, i have decided to leave my aliiance. Even i was screenshot my alliance profile that day for my own life memories T.T . I still care for my member even he/she rarely chat with me, least i can do is i add he/her to my comrades.

When im registered in your alliance, i feel so happy!. I really want to talk with people!. So i try wrote "Hello!", and you replied my message! It feels so great!. But...ah..um... when i saw your member replied to another member, i feel so jealous lol. Why? .. because i never/very rare talking with others in real life. Im a loner even im 22 now =(. I dont want a simple "hello" only! ... so decided to leave! (lol). I really depressed.

Then, i search another alliance that i mention above, cute logo, talkactive, friendly and active aliiance =)...im also not sure how is "friendly" would be.I know nothing in this world =(. At the same time, there is an alliance that have a very cute logo, so thats also there reason why i leave. But after finish this annoying time..ah..um ...something block me from entering, i tapped the join button. Suprisingly, it was full =(

So i search in again... but this time full search mode !...but cant decided which one i should enter. So short story, i meet this one alliance and enter, but when i enter, they talking about in and out people .. and think is "real life". So i feel this alliance are serious and not cute people (evil minds). I immediately out. *mmh*. I saw back my news tab... i saw you still care for me =)...keep visiting my kingdom (your leader too) & replay me "Where?" in this wiki. I felt cry i bit, because no one ever care me like this in my lifetime. My past where so bad that it changed my life entirely (especially in social living). So finally i decided your alliance back! =).

Well In my past, since kid, i was being bullied continously, non stop!. All was bullying me!, even teacher, neighbour, my siblings and random people!. I feel so depressed. I cried everytime every single day! =(. No one wants to friend with me =( moreover I really a sensitive people!. If they communicate with me, they only say "where do you live" or something similar like that. I dont want this every single time!. I really want to express my feeling to people what i wanted but i dont know how!. After decades of loneliness, i feel so depressed that i cried everytime when i went to the bed. i can control it by hide it myself from others. But i cant hold on these pain anymore, i have a limit too.

So I decided to play bunch of  games...to relieve my problem...to communicate with the world... i must do this to learn how to work with people since having communication skill is a must for my future. If not i will be a loner until death =(. I have a heart and feeling too....*cry* mmm ... wahhhh... huhu..mmm~ ;(

Hehe... sorry if i too emotional for you v(^.-)v, not really want to offensive. But i love to want people recognize me who i am! =) .I am Cheriri! (not real name lol) ... and i love playing games and eat icecream! I dont want to be alone! I want to friend with people even the world too and being a happy person! I want to people know who am i !  We are human afterall in the same world too! Nice too meet you! =) *hug*

Bye =)

Cheriri

9/4/2015.

i actually cried a little when i wrote these... >.<, next few hours (about 14 hours) i will attend one last exam paper!..i wrote these instead studying...lol. Sorry for my bad english.

=)  (>.<)v