Thread:Fairingrey/@comment-25348710-20140826131413/@comment-24802125-20140826141759

I don't respect the things he's said to me. Honestly, you're right in a way, that it is a trivial matter why I delete people for that reason, and that it is also true that I'm allowed to and I can disregard what you ask of me.

However, the reason I delete people from my list because they have that certain someone added is because I don't want to be involved in gossip. I've done a rundown with a friend that isn't very familiar with this situation, but things can happen like this: If I happen to have someone added and they send to him and me at the same time, that certain person can incite negative gossip about me 'sniping' or something if I actually do it, or they can simply say they're annoyed that we share a particular sender.

In that way, I am quite afraid of him. I try to distance myself away from people who have him added, but I realize that not everyone might know he or I may have some hostility towards each other. More following reasons why I believe he's the kind of player that will be susceptible to doing those things.

I rarely hold a grudge against other people, and I usually don't say this but I try to be honest when things go down. I've apologized to the guy despite him derisively heckling me on my blog, and I've asked what things I've done wrong; but the guy thinks I'm a certain player doing malicious things to him? Or that I'm shitting up the wiki with my name being virally spread around the community, something of the sort.

Honestly? That's what I hate about him the most. The fact that he will lie and spread slander about me with things people should know aren't true. I 'finally' know how to play just because I reached rank 1? I have multiple people playing on my account? I don't get it. In the end, I just play this game because I enjoy it. In reality, I'm a person that hates getting attention, and the more I can avoid drama the better. And I really try to express that a lot through my blogs. If you think it's a trivial reason for me to delete people that have him added, I agree too. However, even if it is trivial, I have the option to, and I'd rather take it.

Your counterpoint might be, well, that it incites more drama because people who know I don't like him may think it's childish of me to do that. Well, honestly? People adding me while being with him regardless puts me on a tight leash and makes me a target for his slandering. He mentions my name a lot, apparently; a friend from /jp/ kinda gave me a headsup on the link to a particular chatroom where he sardonically mentioned my name to someone.

What I know, is that guys like him will say whatever they believe is right because they know it'll try to harm me in some way. However, I think I'm better than that. If he doesn't think that I deserve forgiveness for whatever reasons I pissed him off for, fine. That's immature on his end, but I like believing that I'm an honest player that is rather communicative with the community despite how much 'attention' it might bring me.

In actuality, I have to thank him. If it weren't for him making me a target for attack, then I wouldn't have left /jp/ and started a small blog that grew into something big that people enjoy reading.

That's that. Thank you for asking me about this, since I know other players might ask the same in the future. If you didn't ask, then someone else would have. Apologies for the ordeal, as usual, and best of wishes to you getting drops and ranking if you are!